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There are times when I get incredibly frustrated. Maybe I am expecting too much. Truthfully, it's entirely possible. I hold people to ridiculously high standards. But I am so irritated tonight. I think it's disrespectful to post why on the internet. Just because I choose to make portions of my life public knowledge via the internet doesn't mean that everyone does.

But I am seriously irritated.

Actually, this is probably a terrible place for venting, and I did so on the private group in facebook.

Argh.

Holy Moly!

It feels like this month has just FLOWN BY! Nothing supremely exciting has happened, but I've just been so busy lately that I can't believe we're going to heading into May pretty soon!

I told R that I've been seeing someone new this month, and that was nice. It makes it easier to talk to him, because I don't feel like I'm keeping secrets.

J spent the first portion of this month working in Blaine, WA, which is apparently next door to Canada. This meant that he stayed in a hotel up there for about a week and a half. This sucked for a couple of reasons. I was lonely, and also was without a cell phone, which was... inconvenient.

One kinda funny story, though, from his time away. He was looking for a grocery store after work to grab a pizza to take back to the hotel, and he did a search in his GPS for the nearest one. There was a Safeway about ten miles away, so off he went. It wasn't until he was stuck on a one way highway with no exit available that he realized the GPS was taking him to Canada! Haha, he had to talk his way through border patrol, only to turn around a wait half an hour to come back into the US. And he doesn't even have a passport! Insane....

Brother has gone back to San Diego, and is working out his final months in the Marine Corps. Other than that, this month has mostly been for working.

J did get a pleasant surprise on his return home from Blaine. He was taken off of one of the work crews (he works for a company that brings crawl spaces up to code), and now he is training to do free estimates, which pays better and is just overall a better opportunity. So that is exciting.

Eep! I just looked at the clock! Time for bed, for sure. I hope you all had a wonderful Easter!

all over thoughts

I've been struggling with blogging lately, ever since the ex and I broke up. I've had a difficult time walking that fine line between what is just the right amount of sharing, and how much sharing is too much. It may finally get easier now that the ex is aware that I am seeing someone. I feel much better now that it's out in the open. I'm no longer afraid of him finding out some deep dark secret, and me feeling like I've betrayed someone. Overall, while hard to build up to, I think it's for the best.

I've become quite the homebody, in other news. I find myself wishing that staying home was an option more and more. I've started planning my meals for the week, in an effort to wean myself off of the Lean Cuisines and maintain a more realistic and satisfying grocery budget.

Holy Christmas, I have a love/hate relationship with food.

I'm reading a lot more. I find myself utilizing the library a lot more lately. I cancelled (well, put on hold, really) my Netflix subscription, and am getting by on movies rented from the library. And I am reading a lot. I'm trying to just... spend more time doing simple things that cost less money.

Also, the Brother is back home from Afghanistan, which is the best thing ever. We drove out to PA for a beer tasting with the Pops last Friday and snapped this picture. I think we all look pretty good.

I'm enjoying my new hair, but missing a softer, more feminine 'do.

I don't know. That's me. How are you?